There are many who can identify with Kacie Cooper’s sweet memories of her first crush. Shared Stories is a weekly column featuring articles by participants in a writing class at the Norwalk Senior Center. Bonnie Mansell is the instructor for this free class offered through the Cerritos College Adult Education Program. Curated by Carol Kearns
By Kathy “Kacie” Cooper
His name was Keith and his family lived on the next street from us. His mother and my mother were best friends. He was the third-born child of seven kids. I was the third-born child of four kids. At my young age I guess I thought this had to be a sign from heaven - we were destined for each other.
Keith was a stocky sort of a young man with eyes like Paul Newman and hair that matched Robert Redford’s. But it wasn’t until many years later, probably 3rd grade, that I realized my attraction to him.
All through elementary school he was a very illusive chap to find. I could never find him at recess, so I would wait at the end of the hall, holding on to the metal pole, hugging it, trying to look inconspicuous while searching high and low, just to get a glimpse of Keith.
Finally, by 5th grade, two years later, I had gotten tired of searching, so I decided to start playing tetherball. By the end of that year, Keith had finally mustered up enough courage to get in line for a game of tetherball.
By then I was the tetherball queen. Kids waited in line to play the queen.
“Can I play?” he asked me. Was he talking to me? I guess he was. Oh my! Of course, I was too shy to answer. I clumsily threw the ball to the next person in line, hitting them right in the kisser, and then ran off as fast as I could. I was just so petrified. I thought I’d be sick to my stomach. Keith had finally spoken to me!
All through junior high he and I continued this hide-and-seek approach to love. Then, in high school, Keith started hanging out with my brother Michael and would come over to our house almost every day.
Still I would hide from him. One day, hiding in my bedroom, quietly opening the door, I saw Keith slowly closing the front door to leave. But before he did, he saw me, stopped, and shot me the cutest smile I had ever seen on him.
I always knew Keith was shy. I think he knew I was shy too. One time I thought maybe Keith and I would have made the best of friends, had I been a boy like my big brother Michael.
A year after graduating, my brother Michael told me that Keith’s girlfriend had just had a baby girl. I was so hurt.
Years later, Michael got married, had two daughters, and Keith started hanging out with some other guys.
Then one devastating night Michael came to me with tears in his eyes and informed me that Keith had died unexpectedly. My heart was crushed.
Michael cradled me in his arms and comforted me and I did the same for him. I don’t know which one of us was hurt more.
Our first crush is the most innocent, the purest, of loves. I never could find Keith here on Earth but let me tell you – if I get to heaven, this time, believe me, I will find him.